The Lonely Life of a Knower

by Moe, Gnostic Warrior

“If a man knows more than others, he becomes lonely.” — Carl Jung

My life has always been filled with the feeling of being alone. These feelings I can recall all throughout my childhood, teen years and as an adult. They followed me like faceless monsters in a bad dream that would last from the wee hours of the morning and well into the dark night of the soul.

Sometimes I would feel the utter despair of abandonment as if I was a child with no parents or family even though I had both. A lost adopted child who even my own biological parents could not relate.

It often didn’t matter who I would surround myself with, and who I befriended for much needed companionship. This loneliness had seemed to haunt me no matter what I did, or where I went. Surrounding myself with people, my life was even lonelier than when I’m by myself.

Today at this point in my 44th year of my sojourn journey, this fact seems more evident than ever.

In this interconnected world of fast media, fast friends, and attention deficit disorderly people, I sometimes feel more disconnected than ever.

I’m simply an outcast caught in a web on the super information highway of ignorance where almost everything and everyone is a copy of a copy that many of us now call our lives.

I’m sure many of you who are reading my words of abandonment can somewhat relate to this life sentence of solitary confinement. A life that was simply not of our own free will choosing, but a deck of cards dealt to us by fate by the dealer of death.

It was as if we were sentenced to Life in order to spend our lives in some cold and dark prison cell with open doors that we are often too scared to venture out of.

You see, this lonely path you and I walk is not one of choice, but of Truth. The way of the knower who knows to much in a crowd of ignorance.

Carl Jung had walked the lonely road of Gnosis for most of his life. He was a knower, and because he was a great soul who knew too much, he was often shunned by his peers, and attacked by his ignorant critics. I think many of us can relate with Jung who had written in Memories, Dreams, and Reflections:

“Knowledge of processes in the background early shaped my relationship to the world. Basically, that relationship was the same in my childhood as it is to this day.

“As a child I felt myself to be alone, and I am still, because I know things and must hint at things which others apparently know nothing of, and for the most part do not want to know.

“Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible. The loneliness began with the experiences of my early dreams, and reached its climax at the time I was working on the unconscious.

I”f a man knows more than others, he becomes lonely.

“But loneliness is not necessarily inimical to companionship, for no one is more sensitive to companionship than the lonely man, and companionship thrives only when each individual remembers his individuality and does not identify himself with others.” – Carl Jung, Memories Dreams and Reflections, Page 356.

As I grow older, I have come to accept my lonely fate. But I also realize that I’m not so alone because they are millions of people around the world just like Jung and like me in my all knowing unified tribe of souls who are true to their higher selves. We come in all sorts of beautiful shapes, colors and modes of alchemical thought.

I have also come to conclusion that my feelings of loneliness are sometimes self fabricated chains on my soul that I must break in order to move my spirit forward.

While this world and people in it can sometimes be ugly and unforgiving, there is much beauty to be found still today in the vast wildnerness of souls whose truths, loves and Great Work are a connection that we all share.

It doesn’t matter your faith, religion or man made word you use to describe your life by, we are all unified by truth, light and love. For like attracts like….

We must all leave this prison cell of the soul of the As Within in order to experience the beauty in all things that can be found on the As Without. This break from jail is part of the Great Work of all my fellow outcast Brothers and Sisters who suffer from the same isolated feelings of the soul.

You see, I have found that the life of a knower does not have to be one filled with utter despair, loneliness and defeat.

This path of the lonely ones can be changed into one of hope, unity, and success. All we have to do is open our eyes and souls to those great people who are like us and wish to connect with one another.

Let us renounce our old attachments to negativity, and grow to new ideals of faith, oneness and hope in all of humanity.

As the greatest of Masonic Philosophers, Manly P. Hall had written:

“But the wise man himself does not feel lonely. Wisdom brings him nearer to life; closer to the heart of the world than the foolish man can ever be.

“The wise man gazing off into space sees not an emptiness, but a space full of life, truth, and law.”

Artwork by Alex Gray




14 Responses to “The Lonely Life of a Knower”

  1. Men Scryfa says:

    Gordon be careful with those pearls. They take time to grow and you know their value


    • ” And They know just what we do
      That we toss and turn at night

      Theyre waiting to make their moves on us
      But the stars are out tonight Yeah”

      ” Stars are never sleeping
      Dead ones and the living ”

    • Why fix your metaphysics -negative and positive reasons

      If religion means for you the idea of a real constructive change of life – rather than (just) a new set of beliefs in the context of exactly the same general way of relating to the world; then you probably need to fix your metaphysics.

      Your metaphysics is, in this sense, your deepest and most fundamental set of assumptions about how reality is organized.

    • [Chakras: Analysing the 7th Energy Centre] [Full article well worth a read]

      ” This also called the crown center or God center. It is concerned with one’s connection to the divine, to the infinite, and to the higher self and “God”, however you conceive Him or Her to be. It is very special today, and very important, as described below.

      Origin. It begin in the pineal gland, which is close to the middle of the skull and part of the way up the head.

      Shape. It resembles a single, narrow funnel opening upwards from the middle and crown of the head. It usually angles backward about 15 degrees. The familiar halo seen around figures such as Jesus of Nazareth has to do with the interaction of a brilliant seventh energy center intersecting with the brilliant merkabah of a developed human being.”

      ” Disturbances. These are very common in modern society. Secular thinking kills this center! This means thinking there is no God, there is no afterlife, there is no soul or spirit, and there is nothing but the body. This kind of thinking is rampant today, and totally wrong. One can tell those who think this way, as their seventh center is closed.

      Society today often tries to block the seventh center because a person with an open seventh center cannot be manipulated and controlled easily by any government or leader. One is independent of the earth, and free, even if one is in prison. It is a wonderful state of mind that governments across the world really do not favor for their people. America is supposed to be the land of the free and the brave, but even here, government has grown so large that it tries to control every aspect of life, and this has a dampening effect upon the seventh center.

      Religions are supposed to develop this center, but even here, most do not want it because the people become too independent. Jesus expressed how to develop this center when he said “Be in the world, but not of it.” ”

      ” Fear shuts down this center badly, while love opens it up wide


      ” Psychological/emotional aspects. It is associated with conviction, love of mankind and of God, knowingness, and alignment with purpose. Opening the seventh energy center is necessary to receive greater knowledge and wisdom that is beyond the level of the physical body. ”

      ” Factors that assist the seventh energy center. All colors of light are helpful in the extreme, such as sunlight. A strong desire to connect with the higher self and practice what one knows helps develop the seventh energy center. The use of the antenna of the multiwave oscillator also helps develop the seventh energy center.

      Many other methods can also be used, especially The Roy Masters meditation with my modification to bring energy in from the head downward to the body. Eliminating fearful thoughts or substituting thoughts of faith, courage and hope are most helpful.

      A wonderful way to develop this center is to think often about Jesus, Allah or Buddha. This helps connect a person with these individuals and other wise beings who can help us. Thus, a true religious conversion and a good life according to one’s religion is quite helpful. Christian thinking, as described in the article, is also wonderful for it. ”

  2. ian says:

    A great article Gordon. I can identify with this 100%. I have read a fair amount of Jung’s work, but was clutching at straws trying to understand it. It was to be honest, mostly beyond me. I do however Identify greatly with this simpler piece. I remember Sir john Betchemen saying that, growing up, he always felt deliciously apart from other boys. I loved that too. Great post.

    • ian says:

      Some will no doubt read my comment and feel that I am being presumptuous. I however will say in my defense, that whilst I lack the finesse of many who comment on here, I am as different from your average TV brigade as some on here are from me. I mean that in a complimentary way as My bluster is often a defense mechanism when I am outgunned, which is often on Tap.

      • ian says:

        Very interesting D’. It seems well beyond me. I have had premonition dreams and distant seeing while dreaming, though on the few occasions it happened by chance, as in I had no control of it. It does however allow me to confidently believe, that there is a medium of some sort that allows these things under the correct circumstances. It would therefore not be a great leap of faith to suppose that there are people who can access this “thing” at will. I have looked at several articles on your site about ancient visitors to our planet and find that interesting too. I was quite taken with Von Daniken’s work, though he was slaughtered by the mainstream. It seems to provide a very possible explanation for human life, that Darwins theory lacks.

  3. Lynn says:

    Ian stop defending yourself..we take you as we find you. We don’t judge you…we read and appreciate your input. We are all made to feel like outsiders with the asleep, they just don’t grasp what is occurring around them. It is like being a square peg in a round hole. You don’t need finesse we like you for who you are. Honest and decent and you give a toss.

    • ian says:

      Thank you Lynn. You’re square peg analogy certainly fits, if you’ll pardon the pun. I feel there is a desire in us, to find like minded people, and, as we are grasping at facts to build our picture of how things really are outside of the professionally made construct of TV controlled society, we all have slightly different perception of how it works. Ego plays a big part in it, and try as I might, not to be, I am as guilty as any. Everyone on here has a good understanding of the way it isn’t though Lynn, and I love that. Sort of like 9/11 or 7/7, we are all certain what they weren’t, we’re just sorting out the fine print of what they were.

      • Lynn says:

        True Ian…that’s exactly why we are all on here. A network of decent hard working people. Asking for knowledge and truth.

  4. Dublinmick says:

    Big things are on the horizon also.

    Blockbuster Breaking News: Wallace Black Elk Shows Up Unannounced At The Home Of Barry’s kaumatua In Christchurch To Receive The Six Red Stones And The Fire Stone (Pounamu)

    When the elders begin exchanging the stones, something big is on the horizon

    • bangonit says:

      Thanks Dublinmick, i look forward to reading the book. Brailsford wrote an amazing book with Hamish Miller the Dowser about the energies at ancient sites in New Zealand that was a joy to read.
      Love peace harmonies.

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