No More Kisses For Mummy

I’ve heard a lot of autism stories. Most of them sound pretty much the same.

Parent takes child to the pediatrician for a checkup. He or she is perfectly normal. Talks. Plays. Laughs. Gives Mommy and Daddy hugs and kisses. Looks at them. Responds to them. Normal.

Doctor says it’s time for a few shots.

MMR. DTaP. Hep B. Hib. Polio. Pneumonia. Flu. Chicken pox. Am I forgetting any? Oh, I think there’s a Hep A shot now. Anyway, you get the idea.

That night, the child has a fever.

Maybe even a seizure.

The high-pitched screaming lasts for hours.

Over the next few days and weeks, everything changes. Stops talking. Playing. Laughing. Giving Mommy and Daddy hugs and kisses. Looking at them. Responding to them. Not so “normal” anymore.

The child is eventually diagnosed with autism. Parent wonders about all those vaccines. Doctor says nah, it’s just a coincidence. Or the child had autism all along, and the parents just never noticed. Didn’t notice that he rarely slept, screamed for hours, had diarrhea day and night, banged his head against the wall. Doctor missed all the signs too. Completely. (Funny how when a child recovers from autism, the parents are often told that he never had autism in the first place.)

Seriously? Yeah. Right.

Now for my story.

It’s June 2006. My daughter Ann and grandson Jake, then 3½, live with me. One night we find a bat in Jake’s room. It tests positive for rabies, and we all get rabies shots. You can be bitten by a bat and not know it, and since rabies is almost always fatal, we don’t have a choice. Remember that word. Choice.

Shot number one and two are uneventful for Jake. Scary, though, because the hospital keeps him for a half hour to make sure he doesn’t go into anaphylactic shock. Shot number 3 ends in a trip to the emergency room that night. Fever of almost 102. Can’t wake him. Doctor says it’s an abnormal reaction to the vaccine and if it happens next time (with shot number 4), he shouldn’t get the last one. Well, I didn’t know a lot back then, but I knew enough to know that you don’t stop the rabies vaccines. Fortunately, Jake has no reaction—at least nothing we can see—to the remaining shots.

A couple weeks later, everything changes. Sound familiar? Jake stops talking. The kid who used to talk in paragraphs, never quiet, is silent. He stops playing—unless you call lining up his cars, meticulously, precisely, always the same, playing. Stops laughing. Stops giving Ann and me hugs and kisses. Stops looking at us. Or responding to us. He doesn’t seem to know we’re there. Stops feeding himself. Holding his own cup. Pottying. Now he’s walking on his toes. Flapping his arms. Looking to the side. His right eye is turning in. He’s floppy. Uncoordinated. Then the meltdowns start. Endless screaming and crying and trembling almost to the point of hyperventilating. He’s afraid of everything. Especially storms. And train whistles. And baths. Nobody can visit. We can’t go anywhere.

Jake has disappeared. Gone. Like someone came in the house and stole him from Ann and me.

September 7, we take him to a developmental pediatrician. He’s diagnosed with autism. Atypical autism, actually. PDD-NOS. Pervasive Developmental Disorder Not Otherwise Specified. No mental retardation.

Unlike many families of children who developed “autistic-like symptoms” after a childhood vaccine, we didn’t hear the usual “It was always there, you just didn’t notice it” or “It’s just a coincidence.” One doctor, after telling us that a link between vaccines and autism had not been proven, did suggest that we report the event to the VAERS (Vaccine Adverse Event Reporting System, Another doctor, when we took Jake in for a regular checkup, said, “You don’t want any vaccines today, do you?” And another said she had seen a lot of children develop autism—usually after the MMR or DTaP. Never after a rabies vaccine.

So here’s a different kind of vaccine. One that no rational person would say no to if bitten or possibly bitten by a rabid animal. After all, you don’t survive rabies. Since my book has been published, I have heard of two other cases. But it’s definitely not something you hear very often. Which is one reason I think Jake’s story lends credibility to the whole vaccine-autism link. Yes. There is a connection. Without a doubt.

Some of my friends and acquaintances think I’m not quite all there on the vaccine issue. They sing the praises of those four dozen by kindergarten childhood vaccines. But when I refer them to the CDC’s recommended immunization schedule for adults (see the brand-new 2012 version at, they do a 180. Literally. They look at me like I’ve grown a third arm or something and say, “Hell no. I’m not getting all those shots.” But it’s okay to inject all that stuff into a baby? Sometimes I’ll ask a friend who I know is on some kind of medication—say, Zoloft—“How would you feel if you were watching the news one night and heard the words ‘Federal Zoloft Court’”? Now I have my friend’s attention. So I proceed to talk about our Federal Vaccine Court. The one that has paid out some $2 billion to families of children injured by vaccines ( Think about it. This is just basic common sense. Why have a vaccine court if there’s not a problem with the vaccines?

I’ve been called ignorant and even told I have blood on my hands. And I’m a member of a cult. You know which one I’m talking about. The group of people who want safe vaccines and want someone, anyone, to just entertain the possibility that vaccines can cause autism in some children. You’re probably a member too.

I have to admit I probably come across as crazy sometimes. The first words out of my mouth when I discover that a friend or relative is pregnant are, “Please, please, whatever you do, don’t vaccinate your baby.” That plea is often accompanied with a strong grip on the arm, which makes me appear even crazier. Or when I hear yet another story—and believe me, I hear one almost every day, sometimes more than one—of a perfectly normal child fading into autism following a vaccine, and the rage wells up in me until I see red and the tears come and suddenly I’m hugging a stranger and being hugged back. Crazy? Maybe.


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6 Responses to “No More Kisses For Mummy”

  1. Anonymous says:

    Erm yes if a child recovers from autism then they never did have it in the first place! Of course they didn’t. If you knew enough then you would know that autism is a lifelong condition. It is completely unfounded that vaccines can cause it and research proves that it doesn’t. Stop scaremongering. There are more problems from children not being vaccinated against things like measles as a direct result of illinformed people like yourself trying to influence others.

  2. Anonymous says:

    My tears are simply NOT enough,

    my heart goes out to all sufferers

    parents & child.



  3. Tapestry says:

    Measles? We all had it when we were kids with no ill effects. Why has it become a deadly disease? It hasn’t.

  4. Anonymous says:

    The above website looks at it from a medical website point of view rather than the view of a lady who says children can recover from autism. They can’t! She has written a book giving people false hope. Parents can help their children to live a near normal life by using the right strategies but they can’t no longer have autism!

    On the website you quote at the bottom of your post she has stated he is diagnosed with non specific autism yet she replies in the comments section that her grandson now has ‘a touch of aspergers’. She conflicts herself. He either has one or the other. When somebody is writing a book such as this one which a lot of parents at their wits end looking for answers will probably use as their bible then their information needs to be accurate.

  5. Julia says:

    My son had measles and mumps as a child and seems to be one of the healthiest people I know. Of course I did have to take some time out to nurse him through it. But I am now confident he has full immunity. Unlike the stupid vaccines, which mysteriously have to be readministered whenever there is a scare of an epidemic. That is readministered to people who have already been vaccinated. And people who have had the vaccine are scared of catching the disease from people who haven’t. Very odd really, because you would think they would believe that they were immune. I find it hard to believe that anyone on this site still believes government or pharmaceutical corporate “research”. There is plenty of research the other way too! You just have to look a bit harder because it is not rammed down your throat.

  6. capricorn says:

    I can’t believe how brain-washed some some of the people who have commented on this blog are!

    The authorities know very well that the autism epidemic is mostly vaccine-related but they decided at a secret meeting they convened in Simpsonwood to “deny everything and admit nothing”, for obvious reasons: If I had caused a 6000% increase in autism, I would be tempted to lie about it as well!

    Deadly Immunity

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